Reclaiming Our Place in Wild Nature - Interview from Esalen

Esalen News: What inspired you to create Wildtender?

Noël: We had the very good fortune to live for nearly a decade in Big Sur. Much of this time felt like an apprenticeship with the place: we devoured the stories and history from books and elders, hiked the backcountry for days and days, became familiar with the plants and animals, witnessed the changes in the landscapes and seasons, and tried to learn how to be good stewards of the land.

Fletcher: Being a “Wildtender” means tending to our inner and outer landscapes. In the outer sense, this means a practice of active engagement with wild nature, showing up in stewardship and companionship with all the non-human beings we share our environment with. We created Wildtender to help other people reclaim a sense of true belonging and beneficial participation in nature – to find meaningful connection with the wild and themselves.

Esalen waterfall

Esalen waterfall

Esalen News: How did your time at Esalen prepare you for your journey as a Wildtender?

Noël: We both came to Esalen to study sustainable agriculture as apprentices in the Farm & Garden. By learning to grow food, we hoped to become more resilient and self-sufficient, to live simply and with purpose, and to deepen our connection to the earth and our selves. After completing my apprenticeship in 2010, I stayed on as the Farm & Garden education coordinator (2010-2015). Fletcher completed his apprenticeship in 2011 and stayed on as a field hand for another year. Fletcher also worked at Gazebo Park School as an assistant teacher.

During our period as Esalen students and staff, we explored our inner emotional and spiritual landscapes through many modalities. During that time, we witnessed an essential and beneficial connection between our inner and outer landscapes. We found wild nature to be a fertile and healing container for personal growth.

Fletcher: There is nothing quite like working with a piece of land for a sustained period of time, and no land really compares to Esalen. Farming is always elemental – our allies are sun, water, soil and air. But there is something extra potent about seeding beds on the bluffs of Esalen’s wave-battered cliffs, and harvesting crops as the sun rises over the mountains; these are primordial experiences that make a permanent shape in a person. We as Wildtenders took root alongside the kale and chard in the humus-rich soil of the Esalen garden.

Our Wildtender programs are deeply informed by our backgrounds in the Esalen Farm & Garden and its unique model of relational agriculture. Like the Farm & Garden, Wildtender facilitates meaningful, educational experiences that connect people with the land, themselves and each other.

Esalen News: You have named Esalen co-founder Dick Price as part of the inspiration for your work in the wild. Would you share more about this connection?

Noël: While we never got to meet Dick himself, Fletcher and I have been fortunate to study and practice extensively with Steven Harper and Dorothy Charles, who have carried Dick’s work forward at Esalen and beyond. We are honored to contribute in our own humble way to the legacy of Gestalt and wilderness practice. As Dick used Big Sur wilderness as an immersive container for his own healing and self-exploration, we too have encountered extraordinary expansion and healing in nature.

Dick Price’s tradition of Gestalt Practice focuses on developing present-centered awareness, making contact with sensation and emotion, exploring interpersonal and intrapersonal issues, and practicing self-expression and communication… His vision for Gestalt Practice was non-hierarchical – dismantling the therapist and client dynamic, just people practicing awareness together and reflecting each others’ experience.

Our Wildtender work follows this vein and extends it to nature. We want to help people cultivate direct and intimate relationships with themselves and the natural world. Our role is to encourage curiosity, openness, sensory experience, and presence. When we come across something interesting on the trail, we are more inclined to ask questions than give answers.

Because many people have conscious or unconscious fears about being in wilderness, we strive to create an environment of safety, trust and supportive (yet flexible and responsive) structure. Feeling safe outdoors frees people to encounter the wonder and beauty of the wild, and connect meaningfully with themselves and the group.

Esalen News: Why is pilgrimage into the wilderness important in our 21st-century lives?

Fletcher: So many of us feel disconnected, unhealthy, and lost these days. Our 21st-century lives are stressful, overscheduled, and too technologically dependent. Wild pilgrimage, or more plainly, journeying through wilderness with intention, allows us to shed some of the shortcomings of modern life, return to a more “natural” state of being, and discover peace and wholeness in nature.

Noël: Having been displaced by a handful of California wildfires and landslides in recent years, we (like so many people) have begun to feel the grave loss and physical/psychic impacts of climate change. These experiences have ignited us to question how we can be in service to a new human paradigm, one in which humans are a reparative and beneficial force of nature.

The Earth is suffering and calls out for our awareness, connection, and care — as do our deep inner selves. We organize Wildtender group programs because of the urgent need for all human beings to come alive, to untangle the social conditioning that has alienated us from our communities and nature, and to reclaim our power as change agents and stewards of this planet.

Fletcher Tucker